See me...feel me e ee

That's a lot of 'e's, eh? When you make the sound, do you feel it in your throat? your tongue? How about your teeth? Do you feel the resonance in your cheekbones?

There is a big difference, isn't there, between seeing it on the page and feeling it? I thought of this difference the other day on my first wheelchair ride. I had convinced my daughter to leave me outside for a bit so I could feel the breeze. Sitting under a sprawling tree bending in the soon-to-be-stormy wind, watching leaves shimmer a little hysterically, I felt bliss. I was the tree and the wind and the sun. My pores shouted Oneness with All, and I listened. Alas, we were pressed for time; the bit was over too soon, and then I was inside again. 

Inside I can see a tree (I'm lucky, I know), but I cannot feel it. Or so says my limited mind. I do feel the breeze from my fan (lucky lucky). I do feel my butt being compressed by bones and organs and things, my back itching, my neck paining, my loneliness saddening. All of these are not separate from the tree, but they feel separate. Or maybe it's more accurate to say they think separate. 

So it is on Zoom as we joke about how nice it is to see each other in our 'little boxes' when, in fact, we are not in boxes but in chairs or beds or other physical supports that actually touch our bodies. So it is for so many of us who feel isolated. We are not actually isolated (see Oneness with All) but our mind hesitates to connect without tactile provocation.

Is there a work-around? 

This week, like many of us, I was horrified by the video of US enforcers on horseback chasing escaping humans back into the water. That touched me alright. I saw the image; I felt horror and helplessness and rage. Thousands of people (less lucky than we) were sent back to a country that could not host them. I can't feel what they feel but I do feel my response.

You can't feel what I feel but you can feel your response to what you imagine. I try to help your imagination by writing openly and truthfully. Thus.

Sept 25, 2021

Comments

[Steven Joseph]

Thank you for sharing!!! Sending hugs that I hope you can feel through the internet!!